Self-reflection

Hi everyone!! Today’s 31st of December, which is the last day of 2013, and from tomorrow onwards, it will be a brand new year and hopefully, a brand new start for everybody! So, I would like to grab this opportunity to have a lengthy last post for my 2013!

In 2013, there were quite a number of disappointments, especially in studies wise. I know that I’m not really a great student and my grades can get pretty average, but never did I expect that despite all the effort (I really did put in effort by not going out at all during the weekends to focus), I just flunked my exams. It was quite a blow to me, and I really felt so guilty to my parents for flunking the exams. However, I decided to continue studying, and although the degree that I’m about to take might not have many opportunities (jobs/life wise), but I just want to prove that I can do it, that I can get a degree.

In 2013, I’m glad I discovered even more clearly, who were the friends who stayed, the friends who left and the friends who changed. A lot of things happened in 2013, and it proved to me clearly who always remained by my side, despite everything. I’m really grateful for that. But to those that left, things might change if BOTH OF US made the effort. I don’t find myself always putting the effort, but it kinda sucks to know that when you put in the effort, and that person just clearly doesn’t, that friendship is GONE. To me, there were a couple of people that I felt I could give a chance, but they broke it/ didn’t really treasure it, and so I will totally move on, just as they did.

In 2013, I learnt quite a number of stuff, where one of them is cooking. Yup, cooking. Its considered an improvement, ok? I learnt how to cook rice (don’t judge me, please), blanch vegetables, steam tofu with meat. And I hope that in 2014, I will learn how to fry! I think frying is quite scary, because the oil might attack me, if the oil is not hot enough! Other than that, I hope that in 2014, I will succeed in my crepe cake! Please help me keep my fingers crossed! 🙂

In 2013, I travelled to quite a number of places too! The shopping heaven in BKK, relaxing outing to Montigo (I still wanna go Fana) and a food outing to Malacca. I really enjoyed each of these travels, and I aim to go to more travelling places in 2014! 🙂

In 2013, I loved more food than I ever knew. I don’t mind exploring the whole of SG, just to find more food, to try, to savour! 🙂 My fav is still Jap food though!

In 2013, I became closer with my lovely secondary school/poly friends and I have learnt to appreciate them even more than ever. My sec sch friends, such as Sha la la, Fana, Haz, Lali and CH are one of the best group of friends that I have, and its amazing that those who you know through secondary school are always those that are the closest and true to you, and always know a deeper understanding to you. I have also a few poly friends whom I am closer to, such as RY, HH san, LL, ZY, MH, Sandra, JS, Nich, and Grace, who have made me a happier person that I already am. Can’t wait to head on more outings in 2014 with them, whether individually or together.

And in 2013, surprisingly, I also kept in contact with my primary school friends, Ger, YS and Kay, and we even did a Christmas exchange. It has been like what 10 years since I saw them??!! And I am so surpised how we could chit chat with no awkwardness or silence at all! We are already planning for the next outing, and I’m so happy that we still remained in contact!

Other than that, I am so thankful for so many funny and helpful colleagues that I got to know better throughout 2013. Hope the year ahead will be better!

Of course, in 2013, WC and I celebrated our 4th year anniversary. I’m glad that 4 years on, we still braved through all obstacles, all difficulties, all misunderstandings, to arrive on our 4th year, as a stronger and changed couple. Hopefully, we will still remain as strong as can be!

Talking about WC, in 2013, I also remained quite good buddies with WC’s buddies- Melon, Woody and Mr Muscle. Late night movies till 2am were our outings since Melon started work, and we became close buddies than ever. Its nice knowing how you can be buddies with ur bf friends, and its nice chatting with them over like what you are facing/ undergoing. I will always remember what Melon said to me when he was fetching me home from WC place, which is really funny, yet truthful.

In 2013, my family still remained as strong as ever, and I’m glad that my family was at my back, when I faced many difficulties in my studies. 🙂

Thats mainly all what happened in 2013. May there be more positivity in 2014, and may my friends, family and colleagues be happier, stronger and healthier! 🙂

I will see this blog again, in 2014. Wishing this year ahead, a better year for each and everyone of your reading this blog, and enjoy the new year! 😀

Book For Thoughts

Hi everyone!

Decided to give myself a self-proclaimed short break from blogging after my post for BKK that actually took me weeks to edit (resize and addition of fonts) to the pics. If you haven’t seen it, its a post down! 🙂

Anyway, been trying out cardio at home for last week, due to the cray-cray weather (I read from somewhere that Thor just wanted us to watch his new movie, and so the weather has been really rainy, stormy and thunder-y. HAHAHAH!), and surprisingly, cardio actually made me sweat more than running! O.O

However, I stopped cardio for this week, due to being sick. And the only thing to do other than exercising, was to read books, play the piano and watch Hongkong/Korean dramas.

So I just finished reading this book!

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“The Fault In Our Stars” by John Green

This book, is the BEST book I ever read. SERIOUSLY.

All the quotes and stuff in this book is so full of depth, and while reading this book, it makes you think about life.

When we think about how our life is so horrible/ horrid/ sucky now, there is someone out there suffering due to illnesses that are incurable like cancer, like Hazel Grace and Augustus.

While we are healthy, and can still appreciate what we have right now, just treasure whoever is there for you, no matter what happens. 🙂

 I will want to read his other books too! 🙂

There are a few portions that I would like to mention for this post too though, that I find it really meaningful. 🙂

“My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great star-crossed love of my life. Ours was an epic love story, and I won’t be able to get more than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Gus knew. Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because- like all real love stories- it will die with us, as it should. I’d hoped that he’d be eulogizing me, because there’s no one I’d rather have…”

 “Some infinities are bigger than other infinites.”

“But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.”

“The marks that humans leave are mostly scars.”

“You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. “

Though this shouldn’t be mentioned, and I should just keep it silently to myself, but this phrase up there, reminds me of friends that hurt me pretty badly.

To her/ them, I might be considered overly sensitive, but how am I to react when all I felt is isolation or unhappiness? And that’s when I decided to break this friendship all off, cause I was too sick of giving in, letting her/them step over me, when I know that they don’t really appreciate me as a friend.

Its sad, knowing how things have come to this point, but I do know that if I go back as being friends with her/them, the cycle would repeat and I won’t be able to break off at all, and its me giving in again.

Its not that I don’t mind giving in, but friendship like a relationship, and it requires two people to continuously put in effort to maintain this friendship, but sadly, I don’t see it from you/your.

I’m glad that I moved on though, and discovered many true, sincere friends like my Sec sch babes: Nisa, Fana they all, other sec sch friends: CK, Jenn jenn, WC’s buddies and now my guy buddies: Melon, Woody and Mr Muscle, my ex-uni mates: Raffles, Shingo, Jiayi they all, and my poly clique Hh San, Yingying, Xiao Egg and Ruiying.

I’m glad I stayed in your life, while you stayed in mine. 🙂

And of course, extra extra extra attention, to my boyfriend, WC, who played such an important role in helping me slowly pick up and mend the pieces in my life. 😀 I knew I was pretty much the bitch at that moment of time, cause I pretty much flared up ALL the time, but you still was there for me! 🙂

So life’s still good at this moment of time, and now onto my next motivational book: The Answer. 🙂

Blogpost next up on Chanel’s Black Jacket Exhibition that I will be going this week!:D